Excerpts from Gurujī’s seminar on Abhinavagupta’s Paramārthasāra (with a commentary by Yogarāja):
अनादिं पुराणं सर्वप्रतीतीनामनुभवितृतया प्रमातृत्वेनादिसिद्धत्वादेकमित्यसहायं चिदैक्येन स्फुरणाद्भेदस्यानुपपत्तेः।
Anādiṁ purāṇaṁ sarvapratītīnāmanubhavitṛtayā pramātṛtvenādisiddhatvādekamityasahāyaṁ cidaikyena sphuraṇādbhedasyānupapatteḥ|
Translation: He takes refuge in Him who is Anādi –with no beginning– or Ancient, because He is the Ādisiddha –lit. proved in the first place– endowed with the state of being the Experient, i.e. the One who experiences all the pratīti-s or perceptions. Abhinavagupta takes refuge in Him who is “Eka” or Solitary because, in His case, there is no way to prove existence of duality as He flashes in unity with Consciousness.
He is anubhavitṛtayā; He has the state of anubhavitṛ. So, He is anubhavitṛ; He is experiencing .. is perceiving .. feeling, yes? This is Śiva. You! All of you. It’s the One who experiences all the pratīti-s or perceptions. It’s the Perceiver! He is Anādi. He has no beginning. When you think about This (Real You), you cannot trace any beginning for Him. Try to do it. You cannot!
You can be said: “Oh you were born in this body, in 1963, in Rosario city”. “Ah yes”, but No. It’s the body. The body! But when I reflect, or when you reflect in your own Existence, you cannot trace a moment when you didn’t exist at all. I am completely sure. I can go to Vietnam, I can go to Japan, Japan to USA, it’s the same experience. Because this experience cannot stop from existing. You exist all the time. You cannot stop existence. Even death cannot stop your existence. Some people speak about death and at the same time they say that they believe in reincarnation. But that is very strange. Very strange. Because if you believe in reincarnation, you know that you had a previous life. So you never died. You never died. “You”, yes? Your bodies, yes, died. And this body too, yes? in the future. But you never died. That’s why you are speaking about your previous lives. Because… People cannot trace the origin, the first moment of their existence, they cannot! They feel “I exist”, but they cannot trace the first moment. No. If you ask them “when did you start to exist?”, they can think, yes? and say: “Oh I started to exist .. in this year (for example), from this year on”… All that is intellectual only. Thoughts. But, they don’t feel that. They feel “I exist”… “Now!”, not even in the past. “I exist”. Because this experience is constant. It’s beyond time. It’s out of this circle of space and time.
Excerpts retrieved from 1:14:17 to 1:21:00 of Paramārthasāra FULL – Seminar 1 – 1: